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Autore
H.P.Lovecraft
DAGON
di H.P.Lovecraft
(1890-1937)
Published November 1919 on "The Vagrant",
nrs. 11,23-29
I
am writing this under an appreciable mental
strain, since by tonight I shall be no more.
Penniless, and at the end of my supply of
the drug which alone, makes life endurable,
I can bear the torture no longer; and shall
cast myself from this garret window into
the squalid street below. Do not think from
my slavery to morphine that I am a weakling
or a degenerate. When you have read these
hastily scrawled pages you may guess, though
never fully realise, why it is that I must
have forgetfulness or death. It was in one
of the most open and least frequented parts
of the broad Pacific that the packet of
which I was supercargo fell a victim to
the German sea-raider. The great war was
then at its very beginning, and the ocean
forces of the Hun had not completely sunk
to their later degradation; so that our
vessel was made a legitimate prize, whilst
we of her crew were treated with all the
fairness and consideration due us as naval
prisoners. So liberal, indeed, was the discipline
of our captors, that five days after we
were taken I managed to escape alone in
a small boat with water and provisions for
a good length of time.
When I finally found myself adrift and free,
I had but little idea of my surroundings.
Never a competent navigator, I could only
guess vaguely by the sun and stars that
I was somewhat south of the equator. Of
the longitude I knew nothing, and no island
or coastline was in sight. The weather kept
fair, and for uncounted days I drifted aimlessly
beneath the scorching sun; waiting either
for some passing ship, or to be cast on
the shores of some habitable land. But neither
ship nor land appeared, and I began to despair
in my solitude upon the heaving vastness
of unbroken blue.
The change happened whilst I slept. Its
details I shall never know; for my slumber,
though troubled and dream-infested, was
continuous. When at last I awakened, it
was to discover myself half sucked into
a slimy expanse of hellish black mire which
extended about me in monotonous undulations
as far as I could see, and in which my boat
lay grounded some distance away.
Though one might well imagine that my first
sensation would be of wonder at so prodigious
and unexpected a transformation of scenery,
I was in reality more horrified than astonished;
for there was in the air and in the rotting
soil a sinister quality which chilled me
to the very core. The region was putrid
with the carcasses of decaying fish, and
of other less describable things which I
saw protruding from the nasty mud of the
unending plain. Perhaps I should not hope
to convey in mere words the unutterable
hideousness that can dwell in absolute silence
and barren immensity. There was nothing
within hearing, and nothing in sight save
a vast reach of black slime; yet the very
completeness of the stillness and the homogeneity
of the landscape oppressed me with a nauseating
fear.
The sun was blazing down from a sky which
seemed to me almost black in its cloudless
cruelty; as though reflecting the inky marsh
beneath my feet. As I crawled into the stranded
boat I realised that only one theory could
explain my position. Through some unprecedented
volcanic upheaval, a portion of the ocean
floor must have been thrown to the surface,
exposing regions which for innumerable millions
of years had lain hidden under unfathomable
watery depths. So great was the extent of
the new land which had risen beneath me,
that I could not detect the faintest noise
of the surging ocean, strain my ears as
I might. Nor were there any sea-fowl to
prey upon the dead things.
For several hours I sat thinking or brooding
in the boat, which lay upon its side and
afforded a slight shade as the sun moved
across the heavens. As the day progressed,
the ground lost some of its stickiness,
and seemed likely to dry sufficiently for
travelling purposes in a short time. That
night I slept but little, and the next day
I made for myself a pack containing food
and water, preparatory to an overland journey
in search of the vanished sea and possible
rescue.
On the third morning I found the soil dry
enough to walk upon with ease. The odour
of the fish was maddening; but I was too
much concerned with graver things to mind
so slight an evil, and set out boldly for
an unknown goal. All day I forged steadily
westward, guided by a far-away hummock which
rose higher than any other elevation on
the rolling desert. That night I encamped,
and on the following day still travelled
toward the hummock, though that object seemed
scarcely nearer than when I had first espied
it. By the fourth evening I attained the
base of the mound, which turned out to be
much higher than it had appeared from a
distance, an intervening valley setting
it out in sharper relief from the general
surface. Too weary to ascend, I slept in
the shadow of the hill.
I know not why my dreams were so wild that
night; but ere the waning and fantastically
gibbous moon had risen far above the eastern
plain, I was awake in a cold perspiration,
determined to sleep no more. Such visions
as I had experienced were too much for me
to endure again. And in the glow of the
moon I saw how unwise I had been to travel
by day. Without the glare of the parching
sun, my journey would have cost me less
energy; indeed, I now felt quite able to
perform the ascent which had deterred me
at sunset. Picking up my pack, I started
for the crest of the eminence.
I have said that the unbroken monotony of
the rolling plain was a source of vague
horror to me; but I think my horror was
greater when I gained the summit of the
mound and looked down the other side into
an immeasurable pit or canyon, whose black
recesses the moon had not yet soared high
enough to illumine. I felt myself on the
edge of the world, peering over the rim
into a fathomless chaos of eternal night.
Through my terror ran curious reminiscences
of Paradise Lost, and Satan's hideous climb
through the unfashioned realms of darkness.
As the moon climbed higher in the sky, I
began to see that the slopes of the valley
were not quite so perpendicular as I had
imagined. Ledges and outcroppings of rock
afforded fairly easy footholds for a descent,
whilst after a drop of a few hundred feet,
the declivity became very gradual. Urged
on by an impulse which I cannot definitely
analyse, I scrambled with difficulty down
the rocks and stood on the gentler slope
beneath, gazing into the Stygian deeps where
no light had yet penetrated.
All at once my attention was captured by
a vast and singular object on the opposite
slope, which rose steeply about a hundred
yards ahead of me; an object that gleamed
whitely in the newly bestowed rays of the
ascending moon. That it was merely a gigantic
piece of stone, I soon assured myself; but
I was conscious of a distinct impression
that its contour and position were not altogether
the work of Nature. A closer scrutiny filled
me with sensations I cannot express; for
despite its enormous magnitude, and its
position in an abyss which had yawned at
the bottom of the sea since the world was
young, I perceived beyond a doubt that the
strange object was a well-shaped monolith
whose massive bulk had known the workmanship
and perhaps the worship of living and thinking
creatures.
Dazed and frightened, yet not without a
certain thrill of the scientist's or archaeologist's
delight, I examined my surroundings more
closely. The moon, now near the zenith,
shone weirdly and vividly above the towering
steeps that hemmed in the chasm, and revealed
the fact that a far-flung body of water
flowed at the bottom, winding out of sight
in both directions, and almost lapping my
feet as I stood on the slope. Across the
chasm, the wavelets washed the base of the
Cyclopean monolith, on whose surface I could
now trace both inscriptions and crude sculptures.
The writing was in a system of hieroglyphics
unknown to me, and unlike anything I had
ever seen in books, consisting for the most
part of conventionalised aquatic symbols
such as fishes, eels, octopi, crustaceans,
molluscs, whales and the like. Several characters
obviously represented marine things which
are unknown to the modern world, but whose
decomposing forms I had observed on the
ocean-risen plain.
It was the pictorial carving, however, that
did most to hold me spellbound. Plainly
visible across the intervening water on
account of their enormous size was an array
of bas-reliefs whose subjects would have
excited the envy of a Dore. I think that
these things were supposed to depict men
-- at least, a certain sort of men; though
the creatures were shown disporting like
fishes in the waters of some marine grotto,
or paying homage at some monolithic shrine
which appeared to be under the waves as
well. Of their faces and forms I dare not
speak in detail, for the mere remembrance
makes me grow faint. Grotesque beyond the
imagination of a Poe or a Bulwer, they were
damnably human in general outline despite
webbed hands and feet, shockingly wide and
flabby lips, glassy, bulging eyes, and other
features less pleasant to recall. Curiously
enough, they seemed to have been chiselled
badly out of proportion with their scenic
background; for one of the creatures was
shown in the act of killing a whale represented
as but little larger than himself. I remarked,
as I say, their grotesqueness and strange
size; but in a moment decided that they
were merely the imaginary gods of some primitive
fishing or seafaring tribe; some tribe whose
last descendant had perished eras before
the first ancestor of the Piltdown or Neanderthal
Man was born. Awestruck at this unexpected
glimpse into a past beyond the conception
of the most daring anthropologist, I stood
musing whilst the moon cast queer reflections
on the silent channel before me.
Then suddenly I saw it. With only a slight
churning to mark its rise to the surface,
the thing slid into view above the dark
waters. Vast, Polyphemus-like, and loathsome,
it darted like a stupendous monster of nightmares
to the monolith, about which it flung its
gigantic scaly arms, the while it bowed
its hideous head and gave vent to certain
measured sounds. I think I went mad then.
Of my frantic ascent of the slope and cliff,
and of my delirious journey back to the
stranded boat, I remember little. I believe
I sang a great deal, and laughed oddly when
I was unable to sing. I have indistinct
recollections of a great storm some time
after I reached the boat; at any rate, I
knew that I heard peals of thunder and other
tones which Nature utters only in her wildest
moods.
When I came out of the shadows I was in
a San Francisco hospital; brought thither
by the captain of the American ship which
had picked up my boat in mid-ocean. In my
delirium I had said much, but found that
my words had been given scant attention.
Of any land upheaval in the Pacific, my
rescuers knew nothing; nor did I deem it
necessary to insist upon a thing which I
knew they could not believe. Once I sought
out a celebrated ethnologist, and amused
him with peculiar questions regarding the
ancient Philistine legend of Dagon, the
Fish-God; but soon perceiving that he was
hopelessly conventional, I did not press
my inquiries.
It is at night, especially when the moon
is gibbous and waning, that I see the thing.
I tried morphine; but the drug has given
only transient surcease, and has drawn me
into its clutches as a hopeless slave. So
now I am to end it all, having written a
full account for the information or the
contemptuous amusement of my fellow-men.
Often I ask myself if it could not all have
been a pure phantasm -- a mere freak of
fever as I lay sun-stricken and raving in
the open boat after my escape from the German
man-of-war. This I ask myself, but ever
does there come before me a hideously vivid
vision in reply. I cannot think of the deep
sea without shuddering at the nameless things
that may at this very moment be crawling
and floundering on its slimy bed, worshipping
their ancient stone idols and carving their
own detestable likenesses on submarine obelisks
of water-soaked granite. I dream of a day
when they may rise above the billows to
drag down in their reeking talons the remnants
of puny, war-exhausted mankind -- of a day
when the land shall sink, and the dark ocean
floor shall ascend amidst universal pandemonium.
The end is near. I hear a noise at the door,
as of some immense slippery body lum bering
against it. It shall not find me. God, that
hand! The window! The window!
© H.P.Lovecraft 1917
Read
the ITALIAN TRANSLATION
by
Marco R. Capelli
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